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2 years have passed since the first dream came to a miserable end. What I went through during that 2 years had its ups and downs. I failed an exam, suffered in agony to get through that particular year 2006, so that I can begin a new life, starting from 2007 onwards. In 2007, my character had changed, I improved my ways of life, understand people a little more, believing that I could do things that was difficult or impossible to me earlier in my life. It came at a price though, as it was balanced out with obtaining a terrible attitude which includes selfishness, vengefulness, massive rage, and to make matters worse, sinning. Was I a good Christian in these 2 years? Definitely not, for how could a Christian have those sinful thoughts and behaviour and disobedience to God? 2007 gave me alot of personal achievements, but that year also took away my good nature, my sense of reasoning, my friendliness towards others and instilled myself with evil thoughts and actions. I would never have forgiven myself, but I continued on…

The year 2008 began, with the same character I have till now. Would I ever be punished for this? Yes, indeed, and deservingly so. With all the sinning, the vengence I have, the burning rage, all these will come to a drastic end. The Second Dream was very close, it was achievable, but similarly to the First Dream, I was not fated to achieve it. Fate is so essential, but more importantly, my actions to get back my faith will determine my future undertakings. God is righteous, and I deserved to have those 2 dreams shattered, without any apparent salvages. As of before, the Second Dream, came to a fateful end.